Well, the holidays are approaching once again, and once again, I’m thinking of what I want to put on your grave
The leaves are turning colors
and kids are trick or treating.
Snow starts to fall gently on the ground
and they are making snowmen and
tasting snowflakes and
visiting Santa Claus
All things that I will never get to experience with you little Lane.
Yes, I love spending time with the other grandkids. They make me smile and
fill my heart with so much laughter and love.
But there is always that little empty feeling.
Wishing you were there with them to show them the ropes.
After all, you would be a big boy at three now!
Climbing up on grandpa’s lap and
eating macaroni and cheese.
Going for wagon rides and
watching cartoons and Disney movies.
Every time I see a little one around three years old,
I have to just look away.
Its too hard still.
I wonder what you would look like now.
Would you have your daddy’s smile,
or his devilish ways?
Would you have your mommy’s laugh
I know one thing that you would have,
Your grandma’s heart
So with every Christmas carol I hear this year and
every bell I hear chime and
every time I hear little kids laughing as they play in the snow
reminds me of days I won’t have with you.
So, Lane, I will hang your ornament on the tree again this year and
I will put a little tree on your grave.
And in my heart, I will wish you a merry Christmas again in Heaven.
I want you know that you will be in my heart
Christmas and everyday till we are together again.